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“Will you tell me what He said?” [Redeemed from fear.]

 

Aya.

Aya was on my mind when I woke up this morning. Do you remember her? [Check out “Of Luck and Love” for her story.] It was just another withering, sizzling, endless afternoon in Senegal-the kind that leaves me with a far-away look in my eyes as I daydream about the air-conditioned coffee shop existence that I dearly miss in Dakar.

 Aya wouldn’t have the foggiest idea what to with my air-conditioned, Harris Teeter, cruise-control, pre-washed and packaged baby carrots, grande skinny iced caramel latte world. Honestly, Aya wouldn’t even have the foggiest idea what to do with a real bed or a real house or a husband that really loved her.

 That afternoon, Aya, Christy and I were sitting around a small, wooden table discussing death. Morbid, I know-but in a country where even the most ordinary, familiar disease can be fatal, death tends to tiptoe into conversations. I vividly remember Aya’s face-a sad shadow slipped over her chocolate eyes as she talked about a boy.

 He was a guy that she’d adored for years-but he died before she ever had a chance to marry him. In deference to her family’s unmistakably clear expectations of her, she quickly married somebody else.

 Aya looked hopelessly afraid that day. She’s afraid most of the time-afraid that her husband will take another wife or leave

The new team! From left to right: Christy, Michelle, Ted, Ben, Dayton.

her, afraid that she won’t pass her exams and then by definition won’t be able to survive when her husband does leave her [an inevitability for most of the women that I work with], afraid that she won’t be able to keep that impossibly long list of rules that a Muslim woman is expected to meticulously follow to the letter…paralyzing, smothering, crushing fears. She’s drowning in them.

 That afternoon, I looked at Aya and asked her what she thought of death. She hesitantly met my gaze and slowly admitted, “I am afraid of death. We cannot know what happens after we die because no one has ever come back from the dead.”

 I’m certain I looked rather shocked and bemused as I stuttered over myself, exclaiming, “well, actually, Someone has!”

 That next moment was priceless. With a startled, inquisitive jolt Aya sat straight up in her chair, and very simply asked: will you tell me what He said?”

 Thousands of Muslim students in Dakar are asking that same question. Students that God designed to know and walk with Him-that simply have not heard that they were created for Jesus, are perfectly loved by the God of the Universe, and thus have been redeemed from fear and death.

 Several weeks ago in Chicago, our new team for this fall was together for the first time at a STINT conference. These are five people that are incredibly excited to get to point students in Dakar towards their Redeemer! Ted and Michelle are our new additions-Ted you met in a previous blog post, and Michelle happens to be my new favorite person! She’s a Vanderbilt grad who speaks flawless French, and thus has been enlisted to correct mine all year. :) 

Aya’s story isn’t done yet. She’s the reason that I’m hopping on a plane again in a couple of weeks-or one of them. Bineta, Sophie, Khadi and Miriam are all reasons too-and the ever-expanding list goes on. So keep reading…

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Of Flossing. [Or Not.]

With my sister and some cousins at our family reunion several weeks ago!

I am not easily intimidated.

 That shouldn’t be at all surprising-I never have been. For as long as I can remember, I’ve had a sort of reckless, unquenchably defiant streak that’s landed me in some rather sticky situations over the course of my twenty-three years. One November at Thanksgiving, as my family sat in a circle and one-by-one answered that age-old “what are you thankful for this year?” question, I crossed my wiry little arms, jutted out my chin and adamantly refused to say a darn thing. [Silence has always been a rather noteworthy phenomenon around me, thus I instantaneously captured the rapt attention of each person sitting around the dinner table that night.] When questioned as to the cause of my uncharacteristically sealed lips, I replied that I didn’t think the Native Americans who had their land shamelessly stolen in exchange for smallpox infested blankets could possibly have been thankful at all, and announced that as a show of solidarity I had decided not to be thankful that year.

 The point here is, even as a child, it was nearly impossible to make me feel like a child.

 Which brings us to last Thursday afternoon-just another endless, hazy summer day during which I found myself trapped in the dentist office.

 I confess, I was mildly petrified to visit the dentist at all, given the deplorable state of my teeth over the years [an

With my cousin Justin a couple of weeks ago at my all-time favorite store.

unfortunate phenomenon that I attribute to ghastly genetics and an insatiable love of chocolate], and the fact that Ryan Cash got back from Senegal only to discover that he had acquired five [count them, kids!] cavities over the course of his African hiatus. I was somehow certain that mine would be a similar fate, and anticipated spending the most of my Thursday in that dentist chair having smurf-sized holes drilled in my teeth.

 Momentary panic threatened to overwhelm me as my sweet dental hygienist walked in and started asking me all of the usual questions.

 Dental Hygienist: Do you floss?

 Now, hold up right there. The time has come, friends. It’s high time for us all to drop this absurd façade and admit for the very first time that we don’t floss. It’s true. You don’t floss-I know you don’t! You may floss once a blue moon, but there’s no way that you floss every day-much less the recommended twice daily. And that’s okay! I think we should start a support group for “non-flossers” anonymous.

 …and while we’re at it, I think we should also start a support group for people that habitually lie to their dentists.

 Dental Hygienist: Do you floss?

 Me: [Contemplating the miles of room for interpretation in that loaded question]  I…have flossed before.

 What is it about the dentist that causes a twenty-three year old woman to instantaneously feel like a petulant five year old?

 Dental Hygienist[With a decidedly disgusted air of chagrin] What are you supposed to do every day?

 Me: [Quietly, as a very telling red flush began to creep over my face] Floss.

 Dental Hygienist: And what are you going to do twice a day from now on?

 Me: [Mildly ashamed] Anything you tell me to.

 Sadly, it was painfully obvious that I have not been flossing regularly since I was born. I made it out of her office amidst a flurry of impassioned promises to floss every half hour and spend my weekends teaching underprivileged children the benefits of good dental hygiene.

 …unfortunately, given the fact that I didn’t have any cavities, my motivation for changing my dental habits rivals my excitement for watching paint dry.

 [And I’m out of floss.]

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