Monthly Archives: November 2011

Christmas in a Cup. [You've Got a Friend in Me.]

The holiday cups are out at Starbucks, which can only mean one thing:

It’s time, kids.

Christmas! I’m in love. I’m in love, and I don’t care who knows it! Starbucks cups herald the commencement of the Christmas season- and if Starbucks says it’s Christmas, then Christmas it shall be. Starbucks does, after all, dictate how I ought to feel and act and think. If Starbucks told me to take up residence with a two eskimos and a yak in an Alaskan igloo, I’d be on a flight to Anchorage within the hour.

I digress.

The entrance of my dearly beloved red holiday cups into a chilly world that could use a little Christmas [right this very minute!] was an auspicious event I’d been anxiously awaiting for two long years. They’re a big deal-my first year in Africa my sweet Mom sent me a package of those cheery Christmas cups, a casual extravagance that I proudly displayed both years.

…I don’t want to talk about how dirty they were by the time I moved. I don’t want to talk about how dirty I was by the time I moved. And while we’re on the subject, let’s all try not to think about how redneck my decorating scheme was.

I’d been longingly waiting for the chance to go get a holiday cup in person-a holiday cup full of fancy-pants coffee, no less! Ben made all of my Christmas cup hopes and dreams come true last week when he surprised me by showing up at my house and taking me to Starbucks. I walked into the world’s most renowned coffee shop, and lit up like Christmas itself.

Ben, on the other hand, doubled over in insuppressible peals of uninhibited laughter at the discovery that the “holiday cups” I’d been gushing over for two years are just that: cups. Not a special drink. Ben is such a man. Bless him. Though Ben and I have had a ball living in the same[ish] place and getting to hang out, we regularly lament the fact that some of our favorite people [read: the dream team] are scattered here, there and everywhere.

I have abandonment issues. I can’t even help it. Thus, it’s time for everybody’s favorite game: “Where are they now?” Given that our team is nowhere to be found, Ben and I decided to settle for the next best thing and take a series of horribly offensive pictures that depict the stereotypes we thrust upon them over the course of our time in Africa.

Christy moved to Oregon for love. We’ve been over this. She’s saving babies, volunteering at a homeless shelter, and going on regular date nights with the boy that stole her far, far away from me.

While Christy is not actually a redneck, we often joke that she is. Mostly because she lives within spitting distance of a Nascar racetrack. I believe we were trying to channel a barn dance here...

Dayton is still working for Cru part time in Kentucky-with [who else?] international students. We text or call each other every time we’re listening to Christmas music, since we’re no-judgement friends. He also directs music at a church part time, and is getting ready to go to grad school.

Dayton was our team piano man and prayer warrior.

Ted is working outside of Charlotte. He volunteers with Big Brother, Big Sister-and just adopted the cuh-UTEST puppy named Charlie.

Playing basketball. Clearly, I knew exactly what I was doing. Ted was our team jock.

Ben is going to seminary, working for Cru part time at Duke, and looking for a wife full-time.

We forgot to take a picture of Ben's stereotype-but it would definitely have been "team nerd".

We forgot to take a picture depicting this, but Ben was definitely the team nerd.

And Michelle. Michelle is still in Senegal-adjusting to life with a new [sob!] team, and patiently answering way too many skype calls from me. Follow her adventures HERE.

...I know, I know. Not okay. Except if you're on our team, it is. :)

What’s that you say? What was MY stereotype?

I’ll never tell. ;)

Team-you are dearly missed.

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Let it Be.

My type-A control freak personality craves a plan. I’m one of those people that would happily take a print-out detailing the rest of my life, and be on my merry way! I tend to live and die by a cute little green day-planner that serves as a sort of script for my life-you’ll never find me without it.

Unfortunately, life as of late has made it impossible to plan just about anything of importance. This has resulted in to-do lists that look a little something like this:

  1. Paint toes.
  2. Run.
  3. Call Christy [again] and ask her [again] to move back to North Carolina.

Achievable goals. In lieu of an actual idea of what’s going on in my life, clearly I cling to the illusion of control.

I think Jesus has orchestrated this period of uncomfortable uncertainty into my life to teach me more about what exactly it is that I worship. You see, I love having a plan because I really, really  love being in control. And I love being in control because honestly, I’m afraid of what might happen if I’m not. While I understand that any thought I might have that I’m in control is laughable, that God is in control and His plan is always, always better than mine-it sometimes doesn’t feel like that’s true.

I fear something when I think that it can really damage me. Fear is usually a type of worship-when I place more weight on the object of my fear than the One who has told me that He loves me perfectly and I never need to be afraid again.

By exposing where I am afraid, Jesus exposes what I worship. He is gently, painfully, slowly teaching me what it looks like to unclench my stubborn fingers from their death-grip around my dreams, and tentatively hand them back to Him. Mind you, this is no simple process-I have attempted to wrench back the control of my life, and failed so frequently and consistently that I ought to apply for government funding.

As if. As if my life were safer in my hands. As if I were more concerned with it than Jesus is. What an odd, marvelous thought-that the same God who created Jupiter and the Swiss Alps and caramel lattes is more concerned with the details of my life than I am!

And so in the midst of uncertainty, I have to choose truth. And truth is that I simply am not in control-but God is. And He must-must!-be bigger to me than my fears, or I am not really worshipping Him at all. I have been commanded not to be anxious about anything, but to run to Jesus with every worry that I have and leave every single one of them with Him, believing that He cares more than I do and He is working for my good. And He has promised that His peace will guard my heart and mind. A lack of peace is an excellent indicator that I am not trusting Him.

I am declaring the folly of plans, not the futility of hope, mind you! There is hope in placing all of my worship where it belongs. In wrapping up every hope and dream I have in Jesus. That is, after all, what you and I were created to do.

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Occupy Halloween. [Crayons Aren't Sexy.]

It is with morbid fascination and not a little exasperation every Halloween that I watch co-eds at UNC prance around in glorified doilies, making it impossible to determine whether they’re trying to get candy or Japanese business men.

I blame Obamacare.

Mistaking Chapel Hill for the Redlight District in Prague, they masquerade as trashy cops, skanky bumble bees, and whorish Crayola crayons. [Though truthfully, if you can channel your inner trollop into a crayon, my hat goes off to you. …now go use it to cover up.]

Yesterday, Kellan and I made a last minute decision to venture out to Franklin Street-where thousands of elaborately costumed ghouls, goblins and Steve Jobs’ were braving the cold to participate in the most spooktacular event of the season.

Having failed to give any prior thought at all to our costumes, and much too proud to join the masses without one, my genius boyfriend had a brilliant idea: we could occupy Halloween!

We quickly threw this together:

Let me tell you: I fit right in with the crayon-whores.

Our visit to the actual Occupy Chapel Hill protest site! ...these men are not in costume. They're just our new anarchist friends.

Kellan confidently strutted around all evening looking for all the world like someone who might commission oil paintings of his Yorkshire Terrier, while I gave off the distinct impression that I’d just finished rummaging through the recyclables.

Thoroughly self-amused, we grinned the whole way up and down Franklin Street-channeling our inner Miley Cyrus as drag queens and Michael Jacksons asked to take our picture. I think the fact that we were holding hands made it all the more comical-I received more than one comment about “fraternizing with the enemy”.

I know, I know. But I have such a very. large. crush on the enemy.

I can’t even help it.

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